Dreaming of eternal sleep

All i can feel is endless pain
thousand of pieces fallen on the grass
the brown grass that once was green.
They reflect our love and my emotions
but they are all dead without you.
This pain is so sweet, so bitter
it stinks and makes me bleed.
Blood...like a rain, like a river
running and running on my skin
white as the snow that falls outside.
Still i can only laugh at this
how red and beautiful it is
like my red lips used to be
pushed on your pinkish lips,
like my blushed cheeks used to be
cupped by your shaking hands.
Now i am a pale girl
walking in a dark world
holding a broken doll
that represents myself to this cruel world
and yet i cant stop smiling
imagining a beautiful world
where you are the Queen,
where you smile.
Suddenly i feel this crazy desire
to open my hands like wings
and fly away to the dark snowing sky
till my body will give up
and i can fall asleep
dreaming of this heart-taking smile
forever.

Eros

I want to speak a thousand words
to make you see my love
a thousand words of care
to keep you by my side.

I would try the simpliest way
I love you, three words
my way, but they are not enough
for you to come back.

If you could feel my love
i am sure you would be scared
of how deep and strong
a feeling can be.

You gave a whole new meaning to my world
every breath of mine smells like spring
only when you are close to me
and you breath with our rythm.

Everytime i confess my love
to these cold walls
i feel shivers running down my body
and my heart melting.

I was hitted by the worst sickness
i am blessed and cursed
cause Eros visited my heart
with a brown haired angel.

Before he leaves
with a childish smile
he locked you in
and threw the key far away.

Eros, your games killed me
my love is far too serious
too strong, too much
and she isnt coming back. 

Spaciba baby

It's easy to speak out a word
but sometimes so hard to feel it
and then again i cant even spell the word
it always seems so wrong
telling my goodbye to you.
i thought writing it
in a different language
a language that has nothing to do
with you,me,us
is much easier
but same emptiness fills my heart.

Spaciba baby!

You threated me wrong
and broke my world
but then again i feel
like the word baby is the real one
and spaciba an empty lie.

Spaciba baby!
Spaciba baby!

I dont mean it
not even in the least
but i must scream it
trying to fool myself
is such a challenge,
such a fight.

Spaciba baby!

Deep Poetic Moments: Adria

Deep Poetic Moments: Adria

Gone with the wind

The blowing wind whispers in your ears
about a new place he discovered
a place far away with wonders unknown to us
and you already prepare your luggage
catching the first train and before i open my eyes
you are already gone.

I sit on my favourite armchair
holding a wet letter written by your hand
where you describe all the places you've seen
all the wonders you've discovered
and the beauty of this world
signing with your love.

On a station i am standing
waiting for the next train
the one that will bring you back to me
in my caring arms, your home.

But you are gone with the wind
and he is tricky and wild
talking and talking
every time for new places he have seen
and you are never back
leaded by your desire.

Another letter under my pillow
all wet with my tears and signed with your love
as you are forever gone with the wind.

Sinfully in love with you

I saw a rain drop running on the glass
and i smiled thinking how beautiful rain is
till i understood it was a crystal tear
running down my cheek through my reflection.
Dark brown eyes looking at me
unknown to their owner
and still i remember a time
when they were full of life.

To begin with,why am i crying?
The radio is off,no song of ours playing
the books are sealed,no love story for us
and no movie is playing.
Why am i crying then?

Now it's no raindrop but rain
making my neck wet more and more
because i am sinfully in love with you.
No shame, no turning back
i am sinfully in love with your memory
killing myself day by day
without mercy.

Now i remember why,
that dream so real, eating my heart
your arms around me, your voice so soft
and no hope, no glory
no life withing my heart
for an impossible dream i hug
sinfully in love with you.

Adria

You took a walk around the block

searching for a way to make it better

to make the pain sweeter 

to a bitter moment, a moment of death.

It needs a different kind of courage

to speak out the truth

and yet you are not ready to

so you keep lying.

Adria... she speaks out the word

a word you wouldnt understand anyway

not because she talks in her language

but because you dont know it yet.

She knows already

but she doesnt want to believe it

that you lie to her and play 

with her precious heart.

Adria... no she doesnt call your name

she begs you not to play with her

to tell her the truth, to let her die

for living in the sweetest lie.

Adria... Adria...

It means courage.

Time

Time.
A man without mercy.
He smiles at me from every corner
i cant cage him inside my arms.
He smiles at me from inside
but also from outside.
Time.
A man that has everything
but also nothing.
Tick tack...
such a crazy,slow,quickly rythm.
Seconds pass by
nothing changed
but also nothing is the same.
Tick tack...tick tack...
he smiles at me with that cold smile
and no matter how fast i run
i cant catch him

Time...
Without mercy husband...
How many wives have you killed?
And still, i envy you.
So wild, waiting for nothing
and no one.
Oh time...
I am one more of your wives.
You show me no mercy.
Tick tack...tick tack...

I have no time to decide.
Tick tack...
tick tack...
oh time.

Good morning

I want you to hear it from me
every morning, every single morning
i want the first two words
that your ears will hear to be from me.
Good morning.

I want this wish to reach your heart
every single morning
coming from my lips
whispered in your ear.
Good morning.

Every single morning
i want you to understand i mean it
as a wish for a beautiful morning
for you and me.
Good morning, my love.

Destination

I look around me
every day, every hour
people walking, coming, going
and all the way from the beginning.
They walk to nowhere
without someone really waiting for them
without a destination
but they keep walking.

I am wondering
if they had someone by their side
someone to hold their hand
if this world was made for two
would they be without home?

The night falls like a curtain
the stars have no light
for the lost kids without mother
without home, without love.
I look at them standing
no walking no searching
they have no home.

But endlessly dreams
lead us in the stupidity
of creating illusions of a destination
a way that leads us home.

There is no way,
no home, no destination
for a lonely heart that is cold.
But realization brings calmness
and destiny leads you
to the person that holds the ribbon
the red ribbon of fate.

There is no way,
no home, no destination
for a single person
but life with love
care and devotion creates
a road that leads you
where you belong.

Lost Heart

I walk through these woods
that an uncare heart burnt
stealing away a beauty so rare
taking away someone's breath.
In an unknown rythm
prayings leave my lips and my heart.
With closed eyes, with opened heart
through the woods i walk
longing  to find what you lost.
Is it a moment or a thousand of moments
since your cold hand threw away everything?

I walk upon the sea
rider of the waves
singing a lullaby for your tired soul
that wants so bad to sleep.
In a mysterious dance
spells are coming in life full of magic.
With soft kisses
i welcome this new day, this old night
that comes and goes forever.
Is it a moment for us or for you
now that your heart is found?

A world of loneliness

It's dark.
I am blind but i keep walking.
Once upon a time
there was a soft hand
holding mine,leading me.
Then the world
was full of colors.

She left
and i got blind.
The world turned
black and white at first,
then completely black.
And there is no hand
like hers to hold mine.

This world is full
full of loneliness
for lonely hearts
that lost their sight
until they find a hand
so soft, so caring
like the one they used to hold
but then again
for the blind man
no hand will be the same.

So this world is empty
empty of real love
for real people
that had their eyes open
holding a caring hand
so unsure by its own
like they didnt know
the right road to lead you
but then again
this is a world of loneliness.

Walk alone.

Cold summer

Such a coldness hugging an existance lost for months
or is it years since that light faded away?
She was walking bare feet on the snow
all these years through the coldness she smiled
flowers under her feet, sun around her arms
enemy of the Ice Queen and friend of The Light.

Frozen blood inside her veins now
no light, no sun, no summer in her hands
her hair burnt crops on winter's days
a forgotten song upon her lips
untouched and cold without life
drawn in her own dreams.

Snow flakes upon her eyelashes
frozen tears like crystals on her cheeks and a smile
so old that saw everyone's pain
a princess of a forgotten world with no love
that drank the water of oblivion
and let her die for their sins.

Forgeting about me

I hear every word you spoke
in this messy mind of mine
a place full of fuzzy memories
love notes,caring words
and no one to clean this mess.

Lifetime loneliness, woods full of snow
places and times unknown to my little heart
but this voice within leads me
somewhere far away, years and ages
so i can be forever yours.

This dear person that took my heart
a shadow that walks alone and together
smiles at me in such a tempting way
a clear game of my messy mind
as they dont even exist.

A fatal love with no continue
for one of us,you forgot my existance
and deep inside your cave
my body lays cold and broken
beside my bleeding little heart.

My eyes have no more light
they leaded you where your heart was
and couldnt bring myself back
though you never tried to keep me
or take me back with you.

Lost in the labyrinth of my messy mind
i can take the same decision you took
that day we celebrated our love, my own love,
like poison your decision, my decision now
forgeting about me, about myself now.

My beloved wind

oh my beloved you that travel

everywhere and always,

you that carry every known and unknown perfume

and touch our faces softly and hardly

day and night in light or darkness

Oh my dear you who wears your nice clothes

made by any kind and with them running to the hills

always ending up to the sea

so as to listen once again to the sirens

oh my kind lord with the mythical powers

your house is everywhere and nowhere

but you always come back here

so as to listen to my stories

my beloved wind.