Dying for you

I woke up knowing it would be my last day,

my last chance to be by your side,my last moments with you.

I knew this day would come since i first met you,

since the very first look you gave me, a windy night.

Today we will go out on the cruel world, live every day

like every day we will face the crowd with clear eyes.

I will protect you from any harm, my promise to you

a promise that cant be broken by any one and nothing

. I woke up knowing today i will die

a death for love is not quite a death.

I knew our love would be this way, i chose it this way

this way of living my life and i feel no regret.

Today we will smile like always and live like there is no tomorrow,

there is no tomorrow for me, i will be lost in the darkness.

I will protect you from all these mean eyes, all the bad words,

these bad words have nothing to do with you and your perfect eyes.

I woke up knowing... I will die for you tonight

Tonight, our love will be free forever.

Forgiveness

As the dark night circles this world once again

on my knees i fall and beg for forgiveness.

My sinful soul screams for a savior

even though it knows that only i can save myself.

As the dark night circles this world once again

i silently cry asking an angel to feel forgiveness.

My tears are washing my bleeding wounds

but i know it is not so easily over.

As the dark night circles this world once again

a coldness covers my pitiful heart that screams for forgiveness.

My cloudy eyes are looking somewhere far away

though that place has been destroyed.

As the dark night circles this world once again

a will so strong makes me stand and stay still.

My broken heart is falling apart

because i know that there is no forgiveness for me.

Smiling Doll

Eyes closed for minutes

Or are they days?

This image haunts you.

You say it is fake.

Deep inside you know the truth.

You lie to yourself.

You make yourself a human ball.

You cant cry.

You are not allowed to.

You must smile.

It’s an order.

Smile!Smile more!

Hide your tears.

You are cold.

Warm up yourself now!

You are not allowed to cry.

You must be sweet and nice.

There isnt a picture that haunts you.

You just imagine things.

Smile! Smile more!

You are useless.

Stand up and smile.

It’s an order.

Read my lips.

Smile! Smile more!

You have to stay whole.

Stand there and smile.

You were asked to do this.

Forget this image.

You don’t want to remember.

Smile! Smile more!

She will leave you.

You are scared now.

Then smile.

Keep her near you.

Smile! Smile more!

You are useless when you cry.

It’s an order.

You must be sweet and nice.

Stand there

And smile like a doll.

You are nothing.

You only need to smile.

Smile! Smile more!

If you cry,she will leave.

Good girl,you stopped.

Now you will smile.

Smile! Smile more!

You are a doll.

You are her doll.

Stay there.

Let her hug you

And whisper to you her pain.

Smile! Smile more!

You don’t deserve more by her.

Enjoy her warmth.

If you smile she will stay.

It’s an order.

Follow my words.

Forget that image.

You are her doll.

Look she holds you near her.

If you cry she will throw you away.

Sooner or later

It would happen.

Smile! Smile more!

Warm up her heart.

You are ordered to do so.

You love her.

Just do so!

You are fake.

Smile! Smile more!

You are fake.

You always were.

Forget that image.

You are not allowed to remember.

Be there for her.

Don’t cry.

You are her doll.

Smile! Smile more!

Smile more, little fake doll.

It’s the only thing you are good at.

You can cry when you ll be alone.

Don’t complain!

You want her to be happy.

Then don’t cry.

Just smile! Smile more!

Angel of mine

Tonight with a perfect smile,let me die

an angel with a beautiful smile,

my love only this night,

hold me tightly,dont cry...

you know deep inside

that it's my time

a chance for life

your perfect smile.

So just tonight

i will say goodbye

i will say goodnight

angel of mine

Some moments without you

It's been only some hours since you've been gone.

It wont last for ever, not even for long,

but i feel already cold without you.

It's freezing cold without your arms around me.

Outside it's still morning, not even night.

The sun is still on the sky, on our blue sky,

but it seems so dark without you.

It's dark and cold without your kisses on my eyes.

It's been only some hours since you've been gone.

It won't last more than some hours, not even a day,

but i feel so sad and hurt without you.

It's so empty our room without your body beside me.

Inside it's still empty, not even a noise.

My voice is still in my neck, a full neck

but it seems so lonely without you.

It's so empty and lonely without your heart beating.

It's been only some hours since you've been gone.

It won't last forever, it's already over,

but i can't wait to be with you.

It's such a relief hearing your coming.

Outside it's almost evening, not morning anymore.

The sun goes down, on the redish ocean.

Inside it's overcrowded, by a single couple.

It's only you and me that this room needs.

It had been only some hours since you've been gone.

It didnt last for ever, not even a day,

but it lasted so long for me without you.

It was freezing cold without your arms around me.

But it seemed so dark without you.

It was dark and cold without your kisses on my eyes.

But it seemed so lonely without you.

It was so empty and lonely without your heart beating.

My dangerous lover

I know what you are but it doesnt scare me

a crazy feeling fills my heart

making me think i am a freak

not because i still want to be by your side,

only because it makes me want you more.

You are dangerous, i know it

but it doesnt make me love you less

it only makes me feel special

a crazy reaction to your mysterious abilities

making me feel like the world spins around us.

Your eyes make me loose the ground

but it doesnt matter more than any little unimportant thing,

the feeling of swimming in their ocean

while their sun is burning my soul,

a crazy thought that crosses my mind.

Your perfume drives me crazy

it wakes up my wild senses

my animal side wants to break free,

a crazy action to your sweating body

my fingertips that brushes my brown curls.

Your whispering voice traps me

charmingly you call my name

a crazy want to run towards you

though you dont seem to hurry

my heart is racing in my chest.

And your touch sends me to your heaven

as your hands softly are wondering towards my body

my skin is burning every time it makes contact with yours

while you smile at me angelic and with innocence

a crazy sensation reveals itself when you are around.

Your love bites dont scare me at all

there is no blood running down my neck

my energy is drying down though

a crazy sacrifice filling my thoughts

while my life leaves my body.

I know what you are but it doesnt matter to me

a crazy love fills my heart

making me wonder if i am a total freak

not because i still want to be yours forever,

only because it makes me feel proud being your victim.